Tag: #TVShows

My Constant Nightmare

Every single night I used to have this nightmare, it all began when I started reading those Shadowhunters series, but first let me tell you something, I can’t remember anything from my past, I’ve already forgotten every single thing that happened to me during my childhood, the only thing I can remember its a little boy, this guy that appears in every single dream I have, the problem it’s that I don’t even know his name, he’s just there as a grown up guy, but I know that he’s the little boy I remember from my childhood.

How can the books relate with my nightmare? In the book Clary can’t remember her past until she discovers she’s into the Shadowhunter world, when she’s with the silent brothers and the Soul-Sword, she starts to remember little fragments of her life, while reading that scene I actually started remembering some of mine too, creepy huh!

The dream always starts the same way, I’m in a kind of college with that guy, btw we are actually in a romantic relationship which is weird af, we just go to my normal high school and keep with a normal life, there we are just as normal teenagers living their lives.

This guy has Jace attitude, he’s just so sarcastic, mean, selfish but also he has that sensitive side he’s so caring and honest and charming, also he’s good-looking. I’ve tried finding this guy, with this characteristics but I just can’t, I try to remember but nothing seems to be real. But that’s not all the relation I’ve seen, Teen Wolf is also part of this, the tv show series have something that actually made me freak the most, the first part of last season talks about remembering, everything it’s about remembering this guy, it talks about the girl who’s trying to remember the guy, she knows he’s real but she can’t see him at all, only with her supernatural skills and in her dreams, after trying a lot he actually find the way to come back and they get together just the way they were meant to be.

In my case that hasn’t happened yet, I don’t know if its going to happen, he talks to me in all those dreams, he whispers things but when I wake up I just can’t remember anything about him or what he said last night, I don’t even remember his face, just the back of his head and simple characteristics like hair and skin color, I take it as a nightmare cause dreaming about someone you love, like really love, but without knowing who the hell he is, it’s just a nightmare for me, the most scaring thing it’s that I know that I have already met him before, there’s something blocked in my head which makes me get stuck in my last memories and not the first ones, I’ve tried a lot of things but nothing happens, maybe at the end of this high school year and when I head off to college I might find him or maybe it’s just that, a constant nightmare.

*I chose that photo because he looks like the guy I’m talking about* 

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Learning from a TV show

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Lately I’ve been thinking a lot of what should I do with my future, I’ve been stressing out for all this stuff and I actually wasn’t even think about it in a focused way, tonight I was just watching awkward *I’ve already talked about that series btw* and I just realized that finishing that show has open my mind a lot.

I can say that I can be a like to Jenna Hamilton in a certain way, some experiences she has during the show have shown me a lot and I’ve been learning from them, I know that we have to find our own voice and to reach what we must want in life, but watching this show has helped me a lot to find out those little things that happen in high school such as love, friendship and education, things which maybe I haven’t realized before, but for now I can truly say that we all make mistakes, we all need to learn from them, and sometimes it is fate to be in a specific place, with a specific person and in a specific time.

I know that time let us know who we really want to be, but during the journey we have to discover ourselves, I’ve never been the girl who knows everything, I’m not the girl who’s always has the answers, I’ve made lots of mistakes, but nothing will be the same if I hadn’t made them, they’re part of me and without them I will not be the same person I am now.

During this journey I’ve learned a lot, watching all those movies, tv shows or series, I’ve realized that sometimes we only need a little help to go through all this stuff and survive along this thing called LIFE cause at the end we all have a purpose on this world, and we need to fight hard to find which is our destiny.

I can’t belive how the authors of Awkward. could have made all of this, I’m just impressed, there are such many chapters which I just can’t handle, pressing the pause button was the only solution to take a minute and think about my own problems, trying to find what I was doing wrong at that time, this show brought me a lot of laugh, tears, smiles but the most important thing I really learned about how hard life can be, how harsh people can turn out. I would really recommend this show to all those ones that need a little of high school and teenage knowledge, it really helps, also personally I had this days in which I started watching it and I just could not understand a word of it, those times I just close the tab and watch another thing, I don’t know how, but you’ll only watch the show in the right time, when you really need it. I discovered this show in my fifth semester of high school and I could be more thankful for it, this show has been an anchor that lets me keep going with things that I thought were not relevant at all, I really think it was just a sign maybe even fate.

Maybe this is more a review about a series than something personal, but for me it has been a whole experience which by the way has taught me more that even some of own experiences, I’m really thankful for those awkward authors, they must be really proud of their work, because they really nailed it.