Tag: #Stories

My Constant Nightmare

Every single night I used to have this nightmare, it all began when I started reading those Shadowhunters series, but first let me tell you something, I can’t remember anything from my past, I’ve already forgotten every single thing that happened to me during my childhood, the only thing I can remember its a little boy, this guy that appears in every single dream I have, the problem it’s that I don’t even know his name, he’s just there as a grown up guy, but I know that he’s the little boy I remember from my childhood.

How can the books relate with my nightmare? In the book Clary can’t remember her past until she discovers she’s into the Shadowhunter world, when she’s with the silent brothers and the Soul-Sword, she starts to remember little fragments of her life, while reading that scene I actually started remembering some of mine too, creepy huh!

The dream always starts the same way, I’m in a kind of college with that guy, btw we are actually in a romantic relationship which is weird af, we just go to my normal high school and keep with a normal life, there we are just as normal teenagers living their lives.

This guy has Jace attitude, he’s just so sarcastic, mean, selfish but also he has that sensitive side he’s so caring and honest and charming, also he’s good-looking. I’ve tried finding this guy, with this characteristics but I just can’t, I try to remember but nothing seems to be real. But that’s not all the relation I’ve seen, Teen Wolf is also part of this, the tv show series have something that actually made me freak the most, the first part of last season talks about remembering, everything it’s about remembering this guy, it talks about the girl who’s trying to remember the guy, she knows he’s real but she can’t see him at all, only with her supernatural skills and in her dreams, after trying a lot he actually find the way to come back and they get together just the way they were meant to be.

In my case that hasn’t happened yet, I don’t know if its going to happen, he talks to me in all those dreams, he whispers things but when I wake up I just can’t remember anything about him or what he said last night, I don’t even remember his face, just the back of his head and simple characteristics like hair and skin color, I take it as a nightmare cause dreaming about someone you love, like really love, but without knowing who the hell he is, it’s just a nightmare for me, the most scaring thing it’s that I know that I have already met him before, there’s something blocked in my head which makes me get stuck in my last memories and not the first ones, I’ve tried a lot of things but nothing happens, maybe at the end of this high school year and when I head off to college I might find him or maybe it’s just that, a constant nightmare.

*I chose that photo because he looks like the guy I’m talking about* 

I’m stuck in the middle 

Why I still miss you? It was supposed that I was already over you, but now, now that apparently you don’t have a compromise I just don’t know what happened, I still think and talk and dream about you!
I don’t know if what we had was actually something real or just the game I was playing but then it just turned out that I actually like you.

I’m stuck in the middle, in one hand it’s my best friend, the one who kissed me, and then there’s you, a guy who just appeared out of nothing and started something that makes me feel butterflies on the stomach, I know that maybe we’ll never be together but man I still have a little of hope that you’re gonna talk to me one day, btw I’m confused now, how can I decide what I want? It’s just a lot and what if you’re really over me, and it actually was just a joke, I can’t be repeating the same story all over again, cause when I fall for someone, I can’t think about anyone else but him…

Stressed Out

We all have this days when we don’t know how to feel, we have a lot of stuff around our head, everything is just not going in our way, times passes us by & we don’t even notice about it, we are so occupied trying to fix our feelings, our thoughts, our little messed up world that we forget about living, we spend so much time thinking about what would life be if we’ve done something different, but the truth is that we can’t fix what we did, past is just right there, in the past, it’s GONE & we just have to get over it, no matter how hard it is to.

I’ve been waken up lots of nights trying to figure out things from my life, but to be honest the only thing I can do is just stare at the roof & imagine the life which I would rather prefer to have, ruining all my sleeping schedule out for nothing.

I know that at some point all this stuff sucks, but we have to stop willing for things we can’t have, let’s focus on things that actually matters. Yeah, we lost a lover, we’ll find a new one, we lost a friend, if he/she was a real one they would not leave us, we lost a scholarship, work harder & show them you’re better than that, been a teenager can be devastating sometimes, but crap we have to get up, wash our faces and show the world what are we made of, if we just cry all day and night, we’re just showing how sensitive we are and belive it or not we’re actually giving up & letting them win.

Facing things can be a hurtful process but at the end we’ll see a great result & nothing will be more satisfying than realising how much you’ve done and achieved during those whole years of effort and those late nights with coffee cups beside our beds.

Life can give us lots of punches on the stomach, but at the end we learn about those & all of our mistakes are the things that makes us who we are now, we learn from them & we expect not to repeat them, cause we’re all humans & we totally have the right to mess up things, make mistakes, but mostly to realize that we are more than just a simple word or action or name or whatever, because we are awesome just the way we are.

Reading Open Our Minds

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Books, millions and millions of books around the world about different topics, with different stories and all I can say is that at first I thought that it was an extremely boring activity, yeah, I thought that all the time, but recently a friend recommended me some books and challenged me to read them, she LOVES reading by the way, so I accepted the challenge.

At the end of the day she gave me the books so I could read them without buying them, it was a friday night when I started with it. I kept reading and reading till it was almost midnight, I never thought I could be able to read that much in just one night, next day I did the same, and on Sundays morning I realized that I had already finished the book  and it was amazing, for my luck there were 5 more to read, so I finished buying them and reading them all.

Why I share this? Well, I think that most of us don’t like reading that much, but by now I can tell you that reading can help you understand some things that happen in your life, sometimes you can relate to those amazing stories, and even though they are fictional ones, lovely ones or even supernatural ones, they let you discover a different and completely new world, something that may not be real, but make you believe it is.

Books give you another chance to live, they let you discover what is like to be another person, the way it could be if you change a simple thing on your schedule, being part of a group or something else, it also helps to increase our level of comprehension and our points of view, I’m not saying that we should be reading machines, but reading at least one book a month or a year can help in some way, take a chance to discover by yourself how a book can make you feel better, and show you another way to enjoy life without even leaving your bed.