I know what you are feeling. I know that you feel powerless. I know that the feeling of not knowing what to do, it’s tiring. And the fact that you want that person back no matter what is tearing your world apart. I know that you think that I actually don’t know the pain you’re struggling with. But I’ve experience that on my own way too.
Many people tend to say you have to forget about the person you’re missing. In part they are right. But it’s hard and is not so easy let go someone that made you feel loved and fearless. But with time and self care you’ll achieve it.
Experience makes you stronger. You learn along the years. You start knowing which kind of people you need to avoid. And which ones you can count on. The process of forgetting starts with forgiving. There’s something called mental peace. Mental peace is achieved when you’re fine with yourself. You start giving yourself more time, you are the priority.
When you think you can’t forgive. Breath and repeat “I forgive you, because I love myself. I forgive you, because I want to feel better. I forgive you because, I want to be free. I forgive you, because I love myself.”
Everyone has to live what they’ve lived. It’s the path of life. Even if it’s rough and horrible. There’s a rainbow in the end of the road. If you believe you’ll find that peace and you’ll feel better. You don’t depend on anyone, just yourself and you never have to feel bad because of someone who let you down. It’s part of growing up and you’ll get over it. Take your time. Everyone is different and heals in different timing. But be sure that once YOU BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE AND YOU DESERVE BETTER, YOU’LL FEEL FEARLESS AGAIN. Let that person go. You’ll find someone that will fill your heart again. Don’t be afraid to let those feelings go away. It’s okay. You’ll be okay.
Be patient and keep being strong. With time you’ll start experiencing what mental peace is. You’ll feel free and good again. Don’t worry, everything is going to be alright. Just believe in yourself and the major force that you believe in, will help you along to chose the right path.
The first thing I look when I wake up in the morning, it’s my hair. Most of you would think that I love it. But here’s the heartbreaking story. I used to hate my hair completely. Because of the way it looked, the way it was cut, the way the color was not as beautiful as other girls hair. I really, really HATED it.
Then one magical video popped out from my Facebook feed. It was a commercial about some girls that had cancer, and as a consequence they didn’t have hair. When I saw it, I wanted to cry so hard and so loud. I didn’t realise before that not everyone has the possibility of having hair, because of a disease or other problems. I could not believe or forgive myself for wasting my time hating my hair, when all I had to do was just learn how to make it look better, cause it is unique and beautiful the way it is.
After I saw the video. I proposed myself to start making changes. And start embracing the hair god gave me. I invite every single one of you guys, to love the way you are without any prejudices. You are beautiful the way you are and you just have to make your most beautiful features pop. I never judged my hair again after that video and I’m really grateful that god or the universe put it on my feed so I could see it and change my mind about my hair. Now I have beautiful and healthy hair, Ive also managed to have my own routine and it has worked pretty well so far.
I leave you guys the link of the video, if you want to see it. Embrace who you are. 💋
Many people have called me “insensitive”, “You have no feelings”, “You don’t care about anything or anyone besides yourself.” I’ve listen all of those at least 1000 times on the last years.
The thing is; I hide my emotions for myself, sharing them it’s like failing me. I do not show my feelings to anyone, if I do they must be really important and trustable. When I cry, it’s because I’m really overwhelmed and I need to. Is not that I like to do it that often. There are those days when I’m just sick of all the crap people throw, when I cannot hold anymore my emotions.
I don’t know if it’s just me, but sometimes I just feel like my chest is going to explode internally. I can actually feel all my emotions at once. Then the crying and crisis starts. My breath starts to fail a little, I feel a hole all over me, I cannot remember why I’m feeling that way. It just happens. I just need a movie, a serie, a book or a song and it will start.
My mom says “Hiding your feelings and keeping them, its bad for your health. You overwhelm your body and until you can’t keep those emotions there, is when your break. Stop that. Remember is for your own good.” I know she’s right, but I just feel vulnerable when I show something. I just can’t let it happen. I know it might sound crazy, but I’ve tried and instead of feeling better it gets worst.
My advice; find a way to give away those hidden emotions, we all need somehow to let them out. I will keep searching the best option for me and not overwhelm my body. I hope we all find our way out for this.
I may be quiet, but there is a lot on my mind
Two feelings that are extremely hard to control. They can make you turn into another person. Someone who you actually don’t want to be. Controlling them, it’s just as difficult as jumping from an airplane when you’re afraid of heights.
I’ve already written something about my anxiety and how to deal with it. But gosh, recently I’ve been having a lot of trouble controlling anger. I’ve always been a girl who hides emotions, cause for me that’s what makes me feel stronger and not vulnerable at all. I know that maybe I should not be that way. Keeping every single feeling to myself and do not let me cry when I want to, can provoke some harm in future times. I’ve tried a lot of things to keep away my anger. Sometimes it works, others, not that much.
Have you had that feeling you just want to leave everything and run away? Well, that happens to me when I cannot control myself, specifically my emotions. I know sometimes we want to do some things and they turn out to be misplaced. Maybe faith do not want us to have those things, or maybe we just need to try harder to get them.
Along the time, I’ve been researching ways to control inner self-control and emotions that can make us make bad decisions. I’ve found interesting things that may or may no help us all. I list them down below.
- Think before you speak or make a decision: Sometimes when we are angry, we don’t visualize every single detail of the situation that is happening. We just focus on the problem that is bothering us. We need to see ahead the bubble and do not let emotion take our decisions. Cause later we will regret them.
- Try a relaxing bath: After a hard day of work or school or college. Take a relaxing bath put on some music that you like the most and create that background that gets you in a good mood.
- Make a Playlist: Lots of people tend to be music lovers. Well, if you are one of them try making a new playlist that will make you smile as soon as you hear it. Dont try to list popular music, list the kind of music that you totally and actually like, Your mood can change with good music.
- Pamper yourself: Even if you are a girl or a guy try to embrace yourself. Nothing can give you the power to love yourself. Just YOU. Try exfoliation your face, put on mask, try a new lotion, eat a candy or chocolate that you love. Be Creative.
- Go out with Friends: Use that negativity and turn it into posivity. Go out and have fun like there is no tomorrow.