My Twitter Obsession 

Social Media, lots of apps that can connect every single human being with another one, we all have different preferences, sometimes we spend more time on twitter or in Facebook or Instagram or Snapchat or another social media app. 

I actually use all of them, but sincerely I rather prefer using twitter than the other ones, for me Twitter it’s a way to express my feelings in little quotes & showing my support to my favorite artists. 

I know that a follow or some likes do not say anything at all, but when I get that follow from my favorite artist I just can’t hide my shocked and extremely happy face, it actually happened when Shawn Mendes followed me 2 years ago, I was just so happy that I couldn’t help it, I have the honor to be followed by some of my favorite artists. 

When I saw that tweeting and liking other tweets helped you gain followers or likes I started using it more and more and more and more, some nights I actually didn’t even sleep cause I wanted to keep scrolling through the app and find out new feed, new stories, all those new Shawn Mendes Tweets. 

Maybe some of you can relate maybe you don’t, but damn! It took me like 4 months to leave my obsession for that app, really, I’m trying to control my tweets but a new guy Trevor favs my tweets so I just can’t stop writing stuff about him, but balance is what makes me feel better with my inner self 

If you like music, Shawn Mendes, movies and tv shows follow me guys! I’ll follow back ūüíē Twitter

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Love Triangle: Part I

Writer

Epilogue:

Two guys, one girl, a lot of emotions and million of discussions, in a year a lot of things can happen, a lot of things can change, an important relation can be ruined and you can realize who your real friends are.

Characters:

  • My best guy friend – Jence
  • The cousin – Matthew
  • Author, Me – ¬†Clarissa
  • My best girl friend – Danielle

Chapter I

October, 2015

There was this boy, one of my best friends, we were talking as usually at the middle of the night, when he started to talk about a guy just like that so randomly, he told me lots of good things about him, his experiences and where he had already traveled. The next day, it was school day, we talked normally until he mentioned that guy again, we were in french class when he told me that the guy he was talking about yesterday was his cousin and he was going to get into our high school, at first I just say that it was cool, because of the things he told me it seemed that he was an interesting guy, then I just realized that I knew a lot about him without even knowing who he was, so I asked why he told me all of that, and he just said that he wanted me to be his cousins friend.

November, 2015

Days pass by until we saw this guy¬†presenting the entrance exam in the guiding counselors office, I just commented that the guy was good-looking, when we kept walking to our classroom Jence told me that he was his cousin, so I just shut and keep walking until we arrived to the classroom when Jence tried to talk to me about what I said before, I just changed the conversation talking about a movie. At the end of the day Jence sent me a message asking if I really thought that his cousin was good-looking, I had to admit that he really was, so I just said yes, and that was the key word that changed everything…

Shawn Mendes 

There’s a billion of people in the whole world, from different countries, with different languages & different opinions. But there’s someone out there that can catch our eyes in few seconds, even though we only saw them through a computer or a mobile screen.

We all have an artist or actress that makes us insane! For example for me Shawn Mendes is my favorite person and artist in the whole world!

Shawn is one of the most talented guys I’ve ever seen, his debut albums are just amazing, his songs describe teenagers life completely, those lyrics make me feel like someone actually understands everything I’m going through.

His voice is one of the most calming thing I’ve ever heard, I actually use his voice when I have my panic attacks, it just relaxes me & I actually can feel better.

I want to meet him so bad, he has helped me a lot through my rough times, even though I don’t even know him, I have his voice, songs and lyrics. I want to say that he’s my hero besides daddy obviously, and he has grown a lot since his first cover video on vine.

He really inspires me every single day, he’s an amazing kid, with lots of talent, and an extremely big heart, he loves his fans and we all love him back, I’m very proud of him, he has achieved a lot and he still remember where he came from no matter what.

I gotta say that one of my favorite song it’s A Little Too Much, I get related to it, and it just make me realized that I’m not the only one that went through that stage, it helps me a lot, so I consider it one of my favs.

“Sometimes it all gets a little too much, but you gotta realize that soon the dog will clear up”

Anxiety Problems 

Overthinking

Anxiety has been a problem since I started high school, I’ve already had several break downs and got into the hospital because of it.

Over thinking is one of the most common symptoms I have when I’m going to start with an anxiety break down. My head starts hurting like hell, I just can’t focus on anything, every single problem, memory, person comes through my mind at the same time. My heart starts racing, I feel tightening on the chest, start with quick breathing and restlessness.

There are some nights when I just can’t sleep, so I just start watching YouTube videos, which are basically about my favorite tv series or movies, and I just cry out my eyes without any reason. Why? Because information gets stuck in our heads like we need to check out every single thing that happens to us, movies and tv shows personally affect me a lot when I’m going through a similar situation, feeling like nobody cares or likes you because some foolish reasons, being paralyzed by a new project or presentation or experience, feel like you’re alone in this big world.

I’ve been trying to deal with this problem, with such things that actually work for me like

  • Listening to music without headphones, cause if I¬†start with earphones I¬†just get lost and my head starts to hurt again, so when my anxiety has already slow down a little, I just put earphones on.
  • Smell peppermint; this actually helps me a lot, so I¬†can relax and slow down my breathing
  • Close my eyes and start breathing slowly
  • Try not to think on anything, just focusing on my own breathing

But what mostly works its music, I don’t know what I would do without it, I’m basically listening to music every single day, every single time. When I¬†have this break downs all I can do is play my Shawn Mendes songs and just focus on his voice, I don’t know how his voice can control my anxiety, its like magic I swear. When everything gets calm I start listening to my focus playlist on Spotify, and my anxiety goes away for the night.

I know how this thing can make you feel sad and angry and frustrated at the same time, but believe me, find those things that can make you feel better, you’ll go through them and youll feel better, I know that its hard, but remember that you’re the only one that can control it, so don’t be afraid and fight against those anxiety break downs that makes us feel the most vulnerable person in the world, cause we are not. I highly recommend to try out those things I¬†mention maybe you have that one artist or that one person that can help you get calm.

 

My Constant Nightmare

Every single night I used to have this nightmare, it all began when I started reading those Shadowhunters series, but first let me tell you something, I can’t remember anything from my past, I’ve already forgotten every single thing that happened to me during my childhood, the only thing I can remember its a little boy, this guy that appears in every single dream I have, the problem it’s that I don’t even know his name, he’s just there as a grown up guy, but I know that he’s the little boy I remember from my childhood.

How can the books relate with my nightmare? In the book Clary can’t remember her past until she discovers she’s into the Shadowhunter world, when she’s with the silent brothers and the Soul-Sword, she starts to remember little fragments of her life, while reading that scene I actually started remembering some of mine too, creepy huh!

The dream always starts the same way, I’m in a kind of college with that guy, btw we are actually in a romantic relationship which is weird af, we just go to my normal high school and keep with a normal life, there we are just as normal teenagers living their lives.

This guy has Jace attitude, he’s just so sarcastic, mean, selfish but also he has that sensitive side he’s so caring and honest and charming, also he’s good-looking. I’ve tried finding this guy, with this characteristics but I just can’t, I try to remember but nothing seems to be real. But that’s not all the relation I’ve seen, Teen Wolf is also part of this, the tv show series have something that actually made me freak the most, the first part of last season talks about remembering, everything it’s about remembering this guy, it talks about the girl who’s trying to remember the guy, she knows he’s real but she can’t see him at all, only with her supernatural skills and in her dreams, after trying a lot he actually find the way to come back and they get together just the way they were meant to be.

In my case that hasn’t happened yet, I don’t know if its going to happen, he talks to me in all those dreams, he whispers things but when I wake up I just can’t remember anything about him or what he said last night, I don’t even remember his face, just the back of his head and simple characteristics like hair and skin color, I take it as a nightmare cause dreaming about someone you love, like really love, but without knowing who the hell he is, it’s just a nightmare for me, the most scaring thing it’s that I know that I have already met him before, there’s something blocked in my head which makes me get stuck in my last memories and not the first ones, I’ve tried a lot of things but nothing happens, maybe at the end of this high school year and when I head off to college I might find him or maybe it’s just that, a constant nightmare.

*I chose that photo because he looks like the guy I’m talking about* 

College Part II

College

This is the beginning of something new, new opportunities, new friends, new experiences, it’s the beginning of a completely new life for me.

I was suffering like crazy because I didn’t knew where to go to college, I had trouble with picking up a good one without spending a lot of money. At the end everything that I went through during those hard 4 months were worth it, now I’m extremely sure which is the path I’m going to follow.

I’m actually heading off to another state from Mexico, I’m nervous because its going to be something I’ve never experienced before, but thinking about the situation made me realized that this is what I really want.

I also got a good scholarship, I’m excited about this whole thing, now I have to learn lots of things but I have the feeling that this is going to be one of the most amazing experiences in my whole life.

What I’ve learned about this? Well, first of all its that family is going to be there always for you no matter which decisions you make if those decision make you happy then they will understand. Second, when you really want something and you fight for it you achieve it, really I can truly say that working so hard on this whole college stuff has thought me like a lot an at the end I reached my goal. And the last thing is that I’ve learned that not always you’re going to gain every single thing as fast as you think, sometimes you have to work harder to achieve them, we are all capable of reaching our goals, we just have to try to trust in ourselves.

I can proudly say, I DID IT! And there’s no more satisfaction than knowing where you’re going to conclude your student life. My last advice is to focus on what you really want and do it for yourself not someone else cause at the end you’re the one whose gonna live that life.

Best Friends 

We all have that one best friend that appeared from nowhere, the one that you never thought that could actually be your best friend, and if you haven’t… wait for it, one day, the most unexpected day someone will walk from that door & a new friendship would start going on.
Here’s a list which I made out by researching on We Heart It & Pinterest, maybe this can be your best friend goals wish list too:

  • Buy matching bracelets or necklaces.
  • Have a movie marathon.
  • Go on a shopping spree.
  • Fishtail your hair together.
  • Have a sleepover.
  • Have photo shoots together.
  • Start a book of memories.
  • Go on a road trip.
  • Recreate Best Friends photos from Social Media.
  • Have a road trip.
  • Have a paint fight.
  • Use the same outfit.
  • Have a fancy dinner on Christmas.
  • Make a Karaoke afternoon.
  • Have a midnight conversation about your feelings.
  • Let each other chose an outfit & use it for a day, without changing anything.
  • Do each others makeup.
  • Get matching tattoos (including henna ones ūüėā)

This can also be for a group of friends, or family, it’s doesn’t really matter,what matter is that you have a great time with all your pals, have fun & enjoy every single minute you’re surrounded by all of those who you love.

If you have more goals to complete go ahead, also you can comment down below and share me some of the goals you want me to include. Also I create a collection on my We Heart It Account, if you wanna check it out I’ll leave the link here Best Friend Goals.

Don’t give up if you haven’t found those best friends, one day you’ll realize that they’ve been there all the time, just take a minute and figure out who the real ones are.