Category: Thoughts

Teenage Love 

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Sometimes we don’t choose who will be our first kiss, who we will be in love with, who will make our world disappear. Sometimes it can be a stranger come out of nowhere, sometimes it can be a friend, sometimes it can be your closest pal.

Teenage love; it can be rough sometimes, it makes us feel happy, angry, sad & a lot of more things. Thinking about love at this age is just as difficult as a calculus test, even more difficult sometimes. We want to know what the other one is thinking. What does he or she feels. We want to know the truth. We want to know what is really going on. But we need to be honest, that does not happens that often at this age. Several times it’s just a quick moment that feels good and that’s all.

Love is one of the most powerful things in the world, at the end of the day it’s what keep us humans. Love can be criticized in many ways, but what some people don’t understand is that teenage love can be a little bit rushed out but it can be real in certain cases. There are teenagers that have experienced what real love is. They have had the opportunity of learning along their short life, maybe luck, maybe destiny. And they have had a really good time.

On the other hand, there are the ones that at a short age don’t really know the meaning of love. Some of us think it’s all about having someone around and brag about it. I certainly don’t know what real love is. I think it depends a lot on how it has been presented to each one of us since we were little. A true definition is made up by every single one of us.

Lets be honest. How many times we’ve said were in love with someone without knowing that person that much? At some point everyone, no matter the age, has had imagined a whole story with the crush of the moment. Awkward, but true.

Teenage love is one of the most amazing things to experiment. We can make mistakes. We learn from those first loves. We become a better person for the other. We try our best. Enjoy every single moment of love in your life, no matter if it is short or long. What matters is that you actually get the most out of it.

Love like you’ve never been hurt.

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Stressed Out

We all have this days when we don’t know how to feel. We have a lot of stuff stuck in our head. Everything is going on the wrong way, not the one we want. Times passes us by & we don’t even notice about it. We are so occupied trying to fix our feelings, our thoughts, our little messed up world that we forget about living. We spend too much time thinking about what would life be, if we’ve done something different. But the truth is that we can’t fix what we did. Past is just right there, in the past. It’s GONE. We just have to get over it, no matter how hard it is to.

I’ve been waken up lots of nights trying to figure out things from my life, but to be honest the only thing I can do is just stare at the roof & imagine the life which I would rather prefer to have. Ruining all my sleeping schedule out for nothing.

I know that at some point all this stuff sucks. Nevertheless we have to stop willing for things we can’t have. Let’s focus on things that actually matters. Yeah; we lost a lover, we’ll find a new one; we lost a friend, if he/she was a real one they would not have leave us behind; we lost a scholarship, work harder & show them you’re better than that.

Sometimes been a teenager can be really devastating, but crap we have to get up, wash our faces and show the world what are we made of. If we just cry all day and night, we’re just showing how sensitive we are and belive it or not we’re actually giving up & letting them win.

Facing things can be a hurtful process but at the end we’ll see a great result & nothing will be more satisfying than realising how much you’ve done and achieved during those whole years of effort and those late nights with coffee cups beside our beds.

Life can give us lots of punches on the stomach, but at the end we learn from them. Thanks to all those mistakes we can be the person who we are now. We learn from them. We expect not to repeat them, but we are all humans & we definately have the right to mess up things, make mistakes. But mostly to realize that we are more than just a simple word or action or name or whatever, because we are awesome just the way we are.

Hidden Emotions

Many people have called me “insensitive”, “You have no feelings”, “You don’t care about anything or anyone besides yourself.” I’ve listen all of those at least 1000 times on the last years.

The thing is; I hide my emotions for myself, sharing them it’s like failing me. I do not show my feelings to anyone, if I do they must be really important and trustable. When I cry, it’s because I’m really overwhelmed and I need to. Is not that I like to do it that often. There are those days when I’m just sick of all the crap people throw, when I cannot hold anymore my emotions.

I don’t know if it’s just me, but sometimes I just feel like my chest is going to explode internally. I can actually feel all my emotions at once. Then the crying and crisis starts. My breath starts to fail a little, I feel a hole all over me, I cannot remember why I’m feeling that way. It just happens. I just need a movie, a serie, a book or a song and it will start.

My mom says “Hiding your feelings and keeping them, its bad for your health. You overwhelm your body and until you can’t keep those emotions there, is when your break. Stop that. Remember is for your own good.” I know she’s right, but I just feel vulnerable when I show something. I just can’t let it happen. I know it might sound crazy, but I’ve tried and instead of feeling better it gets worst.

My advice; find a way to give away those hidden emotions, we all need somehow to let them out. I will keep searching the best option for me and not overwhelm my body. I hope we all find our way out for this.

I may be quiet, but there is a lot on my mind

My Twitter Obsession 

Social Media, lots of apps that can connect every single human being with another one, we all have different preferences, sometimes we spend more time on twitter or in Facebook or Instagram or Snapchat or another social media app. 

I actually use all of them, but sincerely I rather prefer using twitter than the other ones, for me Twitter it’s a way to express my feelings in little quotes & showing my support to my favorite artists. 

I know that a follow or some likes do not say anything at all, but when I get that follow from my favorite artist I just can’t hide my shocked and extremely happy face, it actually happened when Shawn Mendes followed me 2 years ago, I was just so happy that I couldn’t help it, I have the honor to be followed by some of my favorite artists. 

When I saw that tweeting and liking other tweets helped you gain followers or likes I started using it more and more and more and more, some nights I actually didn’t even sleep cause I wanted to keep scrolling through the app and find out new feed, new stories, all those new Shawn Mendes Tweets. 

Maybe some of you can relate maybe you don’t, but damn! It took me like 4 months to leave my obsession for that app, really, I’m trying to control my tweets but a new guy Trevor favs my tweets so I just can’t stop writing stuff about him, but balance is what makes me feel better with my inner self 

If you like music, Shawn Mendes, movies and tv shows follow me guys! I’ll follow back 💕 Twitter

Dear: Lost Friend 

Many things can change in a day, in an hour or in few minutes, we don’t know what’s gonna happen next, who we are going meet or who is going to forget about us.

Everything that happens it’s because of a reason, I would love to know the truth about almost every single word you used to say. I just want to know if all those conversations were real or just a part of your show.

I have to be honest with you, sometimes when I don’t have anything to do, I just look back to those days when we spent a lot of time together, told each other lots of things, joke around everything and even when we made future plans, those which were extremely crazy I have to admit, I miss you like a lot, but I can’t keep begging for you to come back when clearly you don’t want to.

I may have lost one of my best friends, but I can say that every single minute I spent with you was one of the best, even though the fights, the crying nights and the hard times and I don’t regret anything about it.

I wish you the best I can, I don’t want to leave you behind, but babe I have to, it’s for the best, I wish we could get back to those days, but sometimes not everything we wish comes true, be safe and care about you, cause I won’t let you come back to my life again.

Sincerely, the girl you used to call best friend.

“It’s going to be hard, but hard it’s not impossible”

 

Just Simple Mistakes 

Some situations can turn out to be extremely difficult, sometimes we think that life is just unfair, that we deserve better things, I know that being a teenager can be really difficult and people may not understand us at all.

But life it’s about knowing by yourself what we are here for, we need to learn from mistakes, each path we choose is what makes us who we are now, every single decision is for a reason, maybe for the moment we think that we don’t deserve what happened but at the end of the day we have to realize that somethings are just meant to be that way.

With the past of the years, I’ve learned that if I didn’t have made that mistakes I may not have learned about the situation, to me making mistakes it’s what makes us humans, with them we can know how life can be, it helps us to reach a new path, reach a good life, reach our objectives, don’t be mad at yourself forever about what you did, instead of being angry and frustrated all the time, try to encourage yourself to make a plan and revert that mistake into your favor, maybe it’s hard but you’ll realize that you inner peace will emerge as soon as you’re fine with your decisions and your mind will not make that mistake again.

Trust and think before you act, that can make a big difference while deciding your final option, take in count the risk and if at the end you didn’t choose the correct one, fix it and keep going with your life, because life it’s too short to worry about it all the time.

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Things happen in an unexpected way, sometimes you decide what to do, sometimes you don’t.

I’m a teenager, I have anxiety problems which makes me vulnerable in certain situations, sometimes I just act in a deliberately way without thinking, sometimes I just over think every single thing I’m going through, or I would like to do.

There’s a big difference between imagination and over thinking, when I imagine there are actually good situations, every thing is placed in a positive way. On the other hand over thinking just makes me feel more anxious and insecure, there are just some nights I can’t get enough sleep and I just start to think and think till I can’t figure an emergency exit from it.

Sometimes it actually helps me to understand that not everything we do it’s the right thing, but there are those ones when you don’t even know the reason of why you did it and you just can get the idea out of your mind.

Lots of things happen in our daily life but we have to understand that we are humans and we’re not perfect, I forget that myself sometimes, but it’s just a real and deep quote for me. I know that sometimes situations get harder but we still need to try to go through them, because this is the life we are living and we’re here because this is our destination.

Always remember that life can put us a lot of obstacles and if we can go through them we’ll achieve everything we’ve always needed or wanted.