Category: Thoughts

Love Triangle: Part II

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Still November, 2015

It was weekend time, I went to the mall to watch a movie with my cousin Brit, we were talking about how was our week at school, what we did and if he had a romantic relationship with someone, she told me about her new boyfriend and how funny he was, when my turn came I confesed that I wasn’t intrested in anyone at the moment, instead of that I told her about Jence’s cousin.

– So what do you think about Matthew?

– Well, he’s handsome and he seems nice, but I actually don’t know him, well it’s like knowing him, but not in a real way, I just know all of that because of what Jence say about him.

– Yeah, that’s right, but anyway maybe you would fall in love with him, instead of just wanting him as Jence say a friend.

– As if, it won’t happen.

We were interrumpted cause the film was already starting, we end up watching Insurgent movie with pop corns and some Ice, when the movie ended we went right to Hollister to buy some clothes we needed for a party at Brit’s house, that night we had a lot of fun, like really lots of fun.

Monday came and Matthew arrived to school, I didn’t notice until Jence told me to come over and introduce myself to him, obviously I ditched him out, that would be creepy, like really creepy, so Jence took me right to Matthew and I had to say hi, he introduced both of us, we started talking and Jence was just there watching and listening every single word we were saying.


Every single girl was amazed because the arrival of the new guy, he was the sensation, girls were trying to get Matthews attention at all cost, they were all over him asking questions and offering to stay and stick with them, Danielle and I were just watching and laughing of how messed up the other girls were, its was surprinsingly intresting how they can be so excited about one guy, just a random new guy.


Jence and I were talking when Matthew arrived, he sticked with us for a while but then he left cause the councelor asked him to go to her office, minutes latter Danielle came and we started talking about which artist we should do our proyect about Shawn Mendes or Justin Bieber, it was a long long talk…

When she left Jence started asking questions

– So, what do you think about Matthew?

– He’s nice and he seems pretty shy, just like me.

– Do you think he’s a good guy?

– A good guy? Like he doing his homework every day or good in ehich way?

– Don’t mess around me, you know what I mean.

– Well, I actually dont so be more specific.

*Ring bells*

– Come on Jence. we have to go to class.

– We will continue with this talk Clarissa you wont be saved by the bell next time

My Twitter ObsessionĀ 

Social Media, lots of apps that can connect every single human being with another one, we all have different preferences, sometimes we spend more time on twitter or in Facebook or Instagram or Snapchat or another social media app. 

I actually use all of them, but sincerely I rather prefer using twitter than the other ones, for me Twitter it’s a way to express my feelings in little quotes & showing my support to my favorite artists. 

I know that a follow or some likes do not say anything at all, but when I get that follow from my favorite artist I just can’t hide my shocked and extremely happy face, it actually happened when Shawn Mendes followed me 2 years ago, I was just so happy that I couldn’t help it, I have the honor to be followed by some of my favorite artists. 

When I saw that tweeting and liking other tweets helped you gain followers or likes I started using it more and more and more and more, some nights I actually didn’t even sleep cause I wanted to keep scrolling through the app and find out new feed, new stories, all those new Shawn Mendes Tweets. 

Maybe some of you can relate maybe you don’t, but damn! It took me like 4 months to leave my obsession for that app, really, I’m trying to control my tweets but a new guy Trevor favs my tweets so I just can’t stop writing stuff about him, but balance is what makes me feel better with my inner self 

If you like music, Shawn Mendes, movies and tv shows follow me guys! I’ll follow back šŸ’• Twitter

Play It; Learn From ItĀ 

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Movies, a constant part of my life, I love watching movies they help me to forget about the reality I’m living,Ā with a little click on play, it’s like entering a new world created by peopleĀ which their only purpose isĀ to entertain us. When I’m bored the thing that I love to do the most is watching a movie, and yeah sometimes I have the struggle of which movie should IĀ see.

Sometimes whatĀ I like to do is search for a good one on the internet, even though it actually takes a lot of time btw, sometimes I have the feeling of which movieĀ I should watch for the moment, its bizarre but at the end of it, the one that I choose, I realize that is the one that I needed for the moment, if I’m having a rough time and then I just start watching a movie, I actually can relate with it, my mood changes and my perspective change too.
I’ve learned a lot of things from every single movie I’ve watched, for me every story has its own meaning for everyone, recently I’ve been watching more comedy and romantic movies, and they just made me realize that there’s time for everything you want, sometimes what you want is not what you need, but other times what you need is something you’re not looking for at all.

Movies, actors, stories, scripts they’re magic created for us, the society, they let us escape from our reality for an hour or two or three as much as the story needs to last, they teach us things about life, they makes us realize things we’ve actually never think of, for me there’s nothing better than a good movie at the end of the week.

Netflix, Tv, Online Web Sites, wherever you watch movies are an amazing tool that can open our minds and make us part of different worlds.

If you wanna check out some movies I love the most, I actually have a collection of it, I’ll leave the link down below, & if you have more suggestions don’t be afraid and comment it down below as well, I would love to watch those movies you guys love.

“A movie is worth it, if at the end of it you’ve learned something you never thought about” – A.R.

Movies & Tv WešŸ’œIt Collection

Dear: Lost FriendĀ 

Many things can change in a day, in an hour or in few minutes, we don’t know what’s gonna happen next, who we are going meet or who is going to forget about us.

Everything that happens it’s because of a reason, I would love to know the truth about almost every single word you used to say. I just want to know if all those conversations were real or just a part of your show.

I have to be honest with you, sometimes when I don’t have anything to do, I just look back to those days when we spent a lot of time together, told each other lots of things, joke around everything and even when we made future plans, those which were extremely crazy I have to admit, I miss you like a lot, but I can’t keep begging for you to come back when clearly you don’t want to.

I may have lost one of my best friends, but I can say that every single minute I spent with you was one of the best, even though the fights, the crying nights and the hard times and I don’t regret anything about it.

I wish you the best I can, I don’t want to leave you behind, but babe I have to, it’s for the best, I wish we could get back to those days, but sometimes not everything we wish comes true, be safe and care about you, cause I won’t let you come back to my life again.

Sincerely, the girl you used to call best friend.

“It’s going to be hard, but hard it’s not impossible”

 

Just Simple MistakesĀ 

Some situations can turn out to be extremely difficult, sometimes we think that life is just unfair, that we deserve better things, I know that being a teenager can be really difficult and people may not understand us at all.

But life it’s about knowing by yourself what we are here for, we need to learn from mistakes, each path we choose is what makes us who we are now, every single decision is for a reason, maybe for the moment we think that we don’t deserve what happened but at the end of the day we have to realize that somethings are just meant to be that way.

With the past of the years, I’ve learned that if I didn’t have made that mistakes I may not have learned about the situation, to me making mistakes it’s what makes us humans, with them we can know how life can be, it helps us to reach a new path, reach a good life, reach our objectives, don’t be mad at yourself forever about what you did, instead of being angry and frustrated all the time, try to encourage yourself to make a plan and revert that mistake into your favor, maybe it’s hard but you’ll realize that you inner peace will emerge as soon as you’re fine with your decisions and your mind will not make that mistake again.

Trust and think before you act, that can make a big difference while deciding your final option, take in count the risk and if at the end you didn’t choose the correct one, fix it and keep going with your life, because life it’s too short to worry about it all the time.

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Things happen in an unexpected way, sometimes you decide what to do, sometimes you don’t.

I’m a teenager, I have anxiety problems which makes me vulnerable in certain situations, sometimes I just act in a deliberately way without thinking, sometimes I just over think every single thing I’m going through, or I would like to do.

There’s a big difference between imagination and over thinking, when I imagine there are actually good situations, every thing is placed in a positive way. On the other hand over thinking just makes me feel more anxious and insecure, there are just some nights I can’t get enough sleep and I just start to think and think till I can’t figure an emergency exit from it.

Sometimes it actually helps me to understand that not everything we do it’s the right thing, but there are those ones when you don’t even know the reason of why you did it and you just can get the idea out of your mind.

Lots of things happen in our daily life but we have to understand that we are humans and we’re not perfect, I forget that myself sometimes, but it’s just a real and deep quote for me. I know that sometimes situations get harder but we still need to try to go through them, because this is the life we are living and we’re here because this is our destination.

Always remember that life can put us a lot of obstacles and if we can go through them we’ll achieve everything we’ve always needed or wanted.

Dear Boys

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I’ve got some question about how boys know what to do in some love situations how do they know what it’s the right thing to do and if it’s the right girl, I really sometimes don’t understand a thing of it, even though I have more guy friends than girl friends.

Maybe I’m overreacting or just being paranoid, when guys kiss a girl that it’s supposed to be a really good friend to you actually just did it because of the hormones or because you really wanted to do it.

I’ve been struggling with this actually, it has been a controversial topic between girls, we think that maybe we are the ones that give them the chance to do it, kiss us, but what does it really means to you guys, I know that we’re in the age of being around the world checking for the new ones to flirt with them, but when you already have a good boy-girl friendship and you just kissed does it really just have to go away every single thing done along all those last years or it’s just a paranoia thing some of the girls have.
I would like that some guys could tell us and helps us find what to do in this kind of situations, what it’s the best thing to do and why?